I feel like my life has been on hold lately.

I’m waiting for a fourth round of Mavenclad. It should be my final round of the medication. I’m waiting for my lymphocytes to get to 0.8 and there is no telling when that may happen. Before my third round, it took almost a year for my blood levels to go back up again so that my body was strong enough to handle a new round.

Since I’m on the third round, I’m only having my blood tested every three months instead of every month, so there’s a lot of guesswork involved. I don’t want to over commit myself to anything in case my blood levels are at the right levels and I have to start my final round. I’ve been waiting and hoping.

I also have to be careful when they are lower, too. I’m susceptible to everything. Mavenclad eradicates my immune system. I have little to protect myself until my red and white levels are higher and my lymphocytes are at a good level.

Well, my lymphocyte levels have gone from a four to a five! This makes me happy for a couple of reasons. It means that, since the next time I get tested is in December, I won’t be starting my fourth round of Mavenclad until the new year. It means that I can go out and about gently as long as I’m careful and balance work with rest.

Also, it means that I’m getting better and that all the work I have done and have been doing (diet, exercise, meditation, therapy) is working. I know that the blood decides in its own time when it wants to heal, but I’d like to think that all of the things that I’m doing are making some kind of difference.

That’s how I roll.