Three years ago, I embarked upon a journey. I had no idea where it would take me or what it would do to me. Nor would I know who I would become.
Three years ago, I started my Copaxone treatment. This is a daily injection that I take to halt the MS. At first, the very thought of injecting myself was rather frightening. This might sound odd as I have three tattoos. But that’s body art. This was injecting myself on a daily basis.
However, the injections were the start of something miraculous. I started eating better and changed my diet. I cut out pop with aspartame, quit smoking and started having more salads on a voluntary basis. My diet would change once more, becoming increasingly healthy.
I did my first MS Walk and started a workout regime shortly afterwards. Throughout the almost three years, my balance and the overall strength of my body has increased. I still do my workout three times a week and have been increasing the number of repetitions.
This journey also led me to looking after my Spirit and mind as well as my body. Injections, medication and diet are only part of the battle. I embraced Tarot cards, Manifestation, Reiki and essential oils. I started working on letting go of past hurts and grudges, things that I had held on to for far too long.
It took three years but I honestly don’t recognize who I used to be. I still don’t know who I will be, but that’s part of the fun. I have learned many things along the way:
* I am stronger than I think I am: I may have Multiple Sclerosis and Cerebral Palsy, but that doesn’t mean I am not strong. Strength comes not just from the physical but also the mental and spiritual.
* I can do anything I put my mind to: Sure, it may take me longer than someone else, but it will still get done, my way.
* If I fall, get up: In the beginning of my thus far three year journey, I fell all the time, covering my body in countless bruises and bumps. While I did consider just laying down and giving up, I did eventually get up. A fall doesn’t mean you’re done; it just means you have to get up and keep going.
* Kindness is always better: While it would be understandable to be angry about all of this, even three years later, I chose the path of kindness. I am kinds to others and am working very hard on being kinder to myself.
* Breathe: Tomorrow is another day. If I have a bad day, I know that a good day will be coming.
I have no idea who I will become. That’s for time and for fate to decide. In the meantime, I’m going to live the best possible life I can and be the best me I can be. Sure, there will be bad days, but that’s what coffee and the occasional piece of chocolate were made for.