Mirror Me

I’ve been looking at myself in the mirror a lot lately.

I wonder, however briefly, how someone can love someone that looks like I do; knobby knees and legs that are too long. Muscles that spasm and shock the body, making me hunch over.

I have been saddened by my body lately, not just by my legs. I know that everything is connected, that the pain I feel when my body spasms takes over my whole body, my mind, not just the area that is convulsing.

The pain goes into the skin, under the skin. I can see it like an ink that floods its way through my blood, through me, filling me with doubt and with dismay which always seem to go hand in hand.

Another spasm fills my legs like water, like stone, and I wonder if the stone will pull me down one day when I am not looking.

At the same time, I think of The Good Things, I count, I breathe.

I breathe.

And the stone melts, waiting for it’s chance once again.

Advertisements

About Jamieson Wolf

Jamieson an award winning, number-one bestselling author. He writes in many different genres. Learn more at www.jamiesonwolf.com
This entry was posted in self esteem, Spasms. Bookmark the permalink.

One Response to Mirror Me

  1. I stumbled onto your blog and am really reading through your posts–some very insightful stuff! As a physical therapist working with many with all types of disabilities, this is a great way to help others understand.

    Am writing this from my new site, linked above and after reading some of your stuff, would love to have you write a post if you are interested. It’s a new type of blog–anyone can write–can be with a name or anonymous, linked to your site or not, totally up to you. The topics are wide open and it is really all about getting discussions going about issues and topics that are avoided or difficult. I hope you’ll check it out!

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s