Category Archives: self esteem

Birthday Reminders

Posted on August 21, 2007 by Jamieson Wolf

I was born on August 22nd, 1978. Every year around my birthday I am reminded that I was supposed to have died   My mother, young and frightened, felt her contractions starting late one evening and was rushed to the … Continue reading →

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A Birthday Dream

Posted on August 16, 2007 by Jamieson Wolf

I did not sleep well last night. I was dreaming again. I have been cursed or blessed (I’m not sure which) with being able to remember almost all my dreams in photographic detail. Sometimes this is a good thing: a … Continue reading →

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Quiet Conversation/Simple Pleasures

Posted on August 9, 2007 by Jamieson Wolf

I am slightly worried. My legs have been seizing up lately, turning from flesh into rock and stone at a moments notice. This is not so unusual for me except that normally I have some sort of warning that my … Continue reading →

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Blue Blood Words

Posted on July 6, 2007 by Jamieson Wolf

I have been quiet lately. This has been mostly due to the fact that I am fighting off a small bout of depression. It’s as if there is a blueness around me that I can breathe in. It wants to … Continue reading →

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Mirror Me

Posted on June 20, 2007 by Jamieson Wolf

I’ve been looking at myself in the mirror a lot lately. I wonder, however briefly, how someone can love someone that looks like I do; knobby knees and legs that are too long. Muscles that spasm and shock the body, … Continue reading →

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The Dark Mark

Posted on June 11, 2007 by Jamieson Wolf

I had my first year wedding anniversary on Saturday. I can’t believe it’s been a year that I’ve been married. I also can’t believe that Robert and I have been together for almost three years. It seems like a few … Continue reading →

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Remembering the Forgotten

Posted on May 23, 2007 by Jamieson Wolf

It is amazing what we teach ourselves to forget. I knew that writing a memoir based off this blog would not be an easy thing to do. This is mostly because I knew the memoir would cover everything in my … Continue reading →

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Things Come In Threes

Posted on May 4, 2007 by Jamieson Wolf

I have been in pain for three days. It started two days ago. Kisses along my legs like razor blades; Elephant Man legs. Walking to work hurt so much that I had to sit down when I got to the … Continue reading →

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Thirsty Thoughts

Posted on April 17, 2007 by Jamieson Wolf

It’s odd, really. Writing all this out has given me a better perspective of myself. I got an email from one of my friends the other day after he read a couple posts from this blog; he said that he would … Continue reading →

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An Indirect Gift

Posted on April 1, 2007 by Jamieson Wolf

I’m pretty sure that my stubbornness has a lot to do with proving my father wrong. Growing up, he expected perfection. As I was born with an imperfection, I ws never worthy of love in his eyes. It took me … Continue reading →

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